Isolation
 

Isolation

All around are people
They surround me everyday
Children screaming in play
Young lover's walking by holding hands
Gazing into each others eyes
Seeing only the stars and their hopes for a future
Family's spending time together
All are happy in this park
I step in
Walking alone
Towards one empty swing
I sit
Rocking softly
The children surrounding me
Look at me funny
Then their parents call them away
Soon one by one they all leave
And I am alone
Again
I move to a bench
Where a group of teens are near by
I sit watching them play football together
Laughing at their mistakes
They start throwing farther and farther
Until they are no longer near me
I walk on over to the river
The park is now empty
I prey to the water for a companion
Sit on the rocks
Listen to the waves
Lapping up to the shore
As if they are welcoming me
Begging for me to join them
To be my friend
I look around
Nobody is near
I stand and strip
Jumping into the cold icy water
Watching it steal my breath
I wade in deeper
The gentle lapping of the water is getter stronger
The current picks up
Tugging me out further
I start to resist it's seductive temptation to belong
The river gets angry
One strong blast of current sweeps my legs from me
I fall down further into it's clutches
It's icy depths keep me captive
Not even allowing me up for air
Starving lungs gulp in ice
Choking on the fluid
My arms and legs kick out wildly
Trying to set myself free of this welcoming prision
Fear giving me strength I almost break free
Almost
Blackness starts around the edge of my vision
Until I fall limp
Strong hands reach me
Pull me out of the water
Once again calm and inviting
My limp body gets thrown onto the shore
Fist pound on my chest
Air forced into my lungs
I once again breath in life
Choking and gasping I open my eyes
Once again having vision
I look around at a group of guys
The closest one looks worried and then angry
What the hell were you doing in the river?
I flinch from his tone
The others start laughing about maybe I was skinny dipping
I remember my nakedness
I move to cover myself
A large blanket in dropped over my shouldars
I mumble a thank you
The guy helps me up
We drive to the hospital where I am given a clean bill of health
I go home in a hospital gown
My clothes still on the sandy shores
I get dressed in my dark room
I leave to go get my things from the park.
It is busy with laughing faces
And happy friends
Close families
I walk to the river
My things are still there
They aren't even worth stealing
I pick them up
I hear a group of girls laughing behind me
I turn around
My clothes in my arms
They are pointing at me
Laughing
She's the one
I know it
She is the one that went skinny dipping and tried to die
I turn and run
Run from their words
Their laughs
I run and stumble
Bumping into people as I go
All I can hear is the laughter
The angry comments from those I ran into
Chasing me
Until I reach my dark room
And collapse on my single bed
How I wish I had really died.........

:(, meer een verhaal dan een gedicht, maar wel weer mooi gevonden, de woorden, zinnen.

xxxx

dankje wel meid :)

wauwie echt mooi en meeslepend, k was echt benieuwd wat der zou gebeuren..

eerst begont vrij verdrietig en rustig, toen ineens onrustig en snel, en toen weer rustig en verdrietig..echt heel moowj geschreven....