Scholieren.com forum - Reflection of me

Looked into a mirror the other day
Took a good look at myself
Because I didn’t see the person
Who I used to see in there

Used to see a girl
With no worries in her world
Small but beautiful
And so happy with her life

Not a dark cloud in the sky
Everything going it’s way
Nothing to be afraid of
A world of perfect order

That little girl is gone now
She has left this body
Now I see confusion and trouble
A wolrd of extreme chaos

Lots of thing going on
Inside that little body
Isecurity about herself
Bad thoughts taking over

Somewhere in the process
Of getting to know myself
Something completely went wrong
But when and what I cannot say

Looked into my eyes
They looked empty
Like a dry well
Dark, deep and quiet

Looked into my heart
Found lots of things
Fear, insecurity, a troubled mind
But not the girl I was looking for

A while ago
Thought she was comming back
Together with my hopes and dreams
Took only a few words to drive her away

Hoping for her return
Started a new life
Part of her slowly came back
But the insecurity and confusion stayed

I feel it now more than ever
Fear of people using me
Doubting their intentions
Do they always mean what they say

Are they using my trust
For their own advantage
Or is their love true
And am I thinking to much behind it

That scares me the most
Not knowing what to think
Not knowing what to do
Confusing is taking over me

As soon as I’m ready
It’ll be time for a talk
Between them and me
Cause I realy need to know

I want to stop thinking ‘what if...’
Don’t want to be scared anymore
Want the confusion to get out
I want the little girl to come back

I just want myself back
Will I ever come back to me again