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A broken Me

You try to change me
But time is running out
You are suprised
That you haven't been able to drowned me in you yet
But I am stronger in that then you thought
You want someone I can be
But still you demand so much more
It is unrealistic what you ask of me
Things that I can not give
Rules and values I will not break
Things that make up me
I thought you loved who I was
Then why are you trying to change me?
You go to far
And these not so subtile demands
Push me towards the door
My tears break your heart
Yet still you do not stop their pain
You don't want me to change you
Neither do I
But why must I change?
I try to talk to you
It works for a day
But then you slip back into the same habits
Time and time again
You don't have enough hours in the day
To make time for us
I don't trust you
You are afraid I will leave
Are you testing to see if I will?
Or are you unconsciously trying to push me away?
I am there when you need me
But where are you?
If I must do this on my own
Tell me now
Stop breaking parts of me off
You must take me in my whole fucked up self
Not smash off peices that you do or do not want
I am not a toy
To be played with at will
I will not stay on that dusty shelf
If you forget me
I will search else where for what I need
And do not get from you
You are afraid that I will leave
If things do not soon change
I will.
Time runs out for you my love
It is breaking me wide open with that thought
Here I am
Will you keep me
Not damage my soul more?
Or will you throw me away
As you pick up a better toy?

dit is een gedicht dat ik een tijdje terug heb geschreven der zit iets van waarheid in en de rest is gewoon verzonnen