Time
 

I use to run, dance and laugh
I had life by the nose
And time to waste
On games and fun
Hell I was still young
I got a car
And drove so fast
Still safe at each night
I walked a lot
Gas too expensive
The bus is cheaper
I had a successful career
Nurses needed
A high demand
12 hr days
Running on your feet
I had friends and loved ones
People who cared
I had a love
Perfect sandy colored hair
We had a fight
Something so stupid
I ran out
Yelling I don't care!
I ran down the block
He never followed me out
His last words echoing
That he had wanted out anyways...
Tears poor unheeded down pale cheeks
Masking my vision
Hiding the truck speeding by
Screaming tires
I turn and stare
Time freezes
For one moment
I see how stupid I was
How much I love him
How silly the fight was
I watch in stunned acceptance
And the shiny black hood
Comes creeping forward
I watch as it hits into me
Slamming me suddenly into the ground
I feel each and every bone break
My body numb
Blackness claims me.

I awake in a room
The lights too bright
Machines whirling around me
Beeping constantly
I open my eyes
Endless eternities go by until I can focus
I am staring straight up
Flat on the bed
A nurse comes busselling in
Seeing me awake
She runs out again
Doctor enters
Assessing my awareness level
Do I know who I am, where I am....
Blah Blah Blah
I know this shit
I was taught it to
I level him with a look
What is up? When can I go home?
He pauses
Looks down at me
I hate that position
I try to move my arms to push me up
Expecting pain from my accidient
Nothing
They don't move
I try harder
The nurse pats my hand sympathetically
The doctor goes on
Telling me I will live here now
I'm paralized
Neck down
I will never move again.
He stops here
But my mind goes on
Understanding the implications
Never walk
Never dance or run or lift my head up
Or drink a glass of water on my own
Never will I bathe myself
Go to the washroom on my own
Never will I sit up
Feed myself
Never will I scratch an itch
Never will I feel one
Never will I feel the air over me
Or pull someone in close for a hug
Never............will I live again
My loves last words
I wanted out anyways...........
Flash through my mind
Never will I tell him I am sorry
That I didn't mean it
That I still love him
Never will he know
Never will I burden him with me now
Guilting him into staying
Never will I love again
Or smile
Never..............
I lay here
Day in and day out
Physio coming to do passive exercises
To not 'let' my muscle waste away.
Why not
I will never need it again
I lay here
Sometimes a kind nurse lets my radio play a bit
I think about all I should have done
Or had wanted to do
I think about all those years of school wasted
Wishing I didn't understand exacly how useless I now am
Not even being given the hope of ignorance
Time
To think
To wish
To regret
To wait
Time
To die.

wow :( hijs mooi!! :(:):)

dankje wel :)

*snapt er serieus niets meer van* beroemde? sinds wanneer ben ik beroemd ofzo?

woei! heel lekker gedicht
tis heel lang, maar het leest lekker snel
en alweder komt het gevoel lekker naar boven

(als ik nog een keer lekker zeg, mag je me een spuitje geven)

goed gedicht/ verhaaltje, dus :D

ja maar maar... ik hou er helemaal niet van om mensen een spuitje te geven dus ik plak je mond gewoon dicht met tape....

dankje wel kasper :D

ow hihi oke dan :)

:) *stopt nu met al dat offtopic gedoe*

ff ontopic nog...iemand die ik ken heeft dit gedicht ook gelezen...en vond het serieus zo mooi en zielig dat ze er letterlijk van moest huilen...dus ik geloof dat je dat wel als een compliment kunt opvatten! :) echt een mooi gedicht...k wou dat ik zo goed kon schrijven! :)(y)