Scholieren.com forum - paranoid fear for sleep song

these thoughts in my mind are killing me
a new sensation floats through my brain
complete awareness of mental instability
i am going totally insane totally insane

horrifying dreams while im awake
i can not bare silence for a second
too much work to less love for heavens sake
i try and renember good times (there are) but i recall none

these girls are my best friends
but they murdered me without a clue
this is the first time i really want it all to end
i wish i could cry like they do

i cant control my body my hands keep shaking
my stomach is going upside down
i can letterly hear my head breaking
this time there is no rebound

i see myself tommorrow in the worst way there is
knowing why i am in this mental institution
it took 15 minutes to realize i dont know to kiss
my happy thoughts, coke and computer kept on creating illusion

i need to get away from here
and this time i really mean it
im not going to keep this behaviour up
this time i cant defeat it

i wish i could tell anyone
why i feel this way
break down and cry in her arms
but i dont know who she is

ive never been so scared before
please anyone report me !
i need to be in a room with invinsible bars
i must stay but be able to get away

my bed is now a hostal place
i dont dare to go asleep
please dont make me ever dream again
my concsious is too steap

its not even possible to explain
in a normal clear way
i cant write this down in normal language
thats killing me cause i have so much to say

gisternacht geschreven, terwijl ik in een vreselijk depressieve, paranoide en angstige bui in paniek heb geschreven, toen ik klaar was trilden mn handen ten minste niet zo meer. Toen ik em vanochtend las schrok ik zelf er zelf van.