A single tear

[Chloë4]

If I had known the tears I’d cry
If I had known the pain I’d feel
If I had know about the shit to come
I don’t know what I would have done

If I had known about the differences
If I had known about the fights
If I could have looked in the future
And seen what I would lose

And I still see it
See it all disappearing
They’re coming quickly
Quicker than ever

It takes me over
Every time
I have to fight it
Every time
Ik have to remove it
Every time
I say I’ll change it
Every time

You say it’s worth it, everthing
But then I wonder, if for you, it is the same
And I know that you can’t share it, you cannot share the pain
My mind is doubtfull, my face is wet
I can’t remember, a thing you said
I’m set on forgetting, forgetting what’s wrong
But nothing is left now, everything’s gone

I have to leave it, all of it behind
Focus on new things, futures that are kind
I know that I’m strong, and that it will pass
But my heart is still fragile, I have a heart of glass.

6-10-2001