It's dark now,
and I'm sinking...
Lover into the depths of depravity,
farther and farther from reality.
I always think I've hit bottom,
I always think it will stop;
but what a joke of life
that I should continue to rot.
Still, I struggle on,
fighting for life
Nearly drowning in my own sorrow,
quagmired in strife.
Each tear a memory,
leaving as a drop
A mere glimmer of the hell
which can never be forgotten.
I feel like I'm one with the night;
the darkness is where I belong.
It is where I fit in, it is where I live,
perhaps it is where I was born...
This one of my closest companions,
but my grandest fear as well
reflecting this lost girl's shell.
Somewhere deep inside
a heart beats for life;
somewhere behind the mask
lies a beautiful smile.
Sometime long ago
in the life that was mine
There was a girl
who I now hope to find.
For still I feel sorrow,
and could sometimes drown in my own tears
...tears shed in sadness
for memories unforgotten.
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