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(Verse 1)
Isn’t there a way that I can just drop dead?
Lost and confused, thoughts runnin’ through my head
Don’t know what to do, don’t know what to feel
But whatever my decission’s gonna be,
It’s gotta be mothafuckin’ real!
That’s what others said to me…
But can I dig that, do that?
And most important: do I want that?
Acting very stupid ‘cause of drugs and alcohol
Grabbing one of his homies in the room next door
And that ain’t all…
Did it once before, felt the same way
Bullshit! Yeah, I know…but hey
You know it’s me man….
(True playa, shouldn’t be wat I can…)
(chorus)
Caught between all these guys…
What I’m gonna do, with all those lies…
Dancin’, drinkin’ feelin’ his eyes…
Havin’ good times….No one cries..
Caught between all these guys…
What I’m gonna do, with all those lies…
Hard to choose between thoughts and feelin’s…
‘Cause temptations drive me crazy…
(Verse 2)
People tellin’ me I ain’t the one to blame
That I couldn’t help it, caught up in tha game
Didn’t want that guy, didn’t need no fame
Did it anyway, actions overruled by shame
In no position to look him in his eyes
My face instantly tellin’ him my lies
At the same time I was playin,
Parts of the two of us were dyin’
Couldn’t help it reminicin’
When that nigga started kissin’
His lips, his smell, his body, shit wasn’t feelin’ right
Primair feelings took control, when I wasn’t in his sight
In ignorance hopin’ he’d remain, stay….
The truth? Perhaps later, on another day…
Would he be fed up? when he founds out,
And would he tell? Or keep his mouth?
(chorus)
(Verse 3)
Thinkin’ I tried to make him jealouse
Drinkin’ and dancin’, only with fellas
He dragged a girl to dance, called my homie
Dancin’ with her, without result try’na diss me
Don’t care, know he doesn’t mean it
Treatin’ me like a ho, a bitch…
Ignore…just what hé did
No clue he was already suspicious
Between those fly guys, feelin’ bootylicious
This party started, lookin’ like paradise
But things weren’t clear until the sun rised
The strong love from once before was gone
Afraid, but knowin’ I’m better off alone
Maybe I’m a little late with this conclusion
‘Better late, than never’, was stupidly blinded by seducion…
Know that I got love for you, everywhere, allways
Forever, unconditional love, until the end of days
If this way’s the best, we’ll just have to see
But there’s just not enough left, between you and me…
(chorus)