Why?!

[John-17]

-Even een snel geschreven hersenspinsel...-

Why?!

Sometimes,

I cry and tear,
gently weeping,
out of fear,
where I will go,

Sometimes,

I yell and shout,
even gasping,
I scream out loud,
why am I here,

Sometimes,

I contemplate,
loudly quiet,
why did they create,
and bring me here,

Sometimes,

I lovely revel,
fully blinded,
I fancy heaven,
before my eyes,

Sometimes,

I fully hate,
in elevation,
every faith,
one could have,

Always,

I wonder why,
thinking deeply,
I can cry,
and yell at once,

Have I two souls,
Am I two persons,
Is there one goal,
I can pursue,

Why am I here,
should I exist,
I have just fear,
I should just die