hijz beetje heel errug lang majah..
Love hurts
It's over
This game is done
I'm tired of playing
Tired of fighting
You don't want to be with me
You use every excuse to stay away
Call me to "check in"
Like I'm a job duty
You call me to tell me
You don't want to talk to me
That your not a phone person
Since when?
2 months ago you liked talking on the phone
We use to talk for 2-3 hours
What happened?
Anytime I said anything to you
You say I'm whinning or nagging
I touch you
And I am pressuring you
Am I not desirable any more?
Is there someone else?
I'm tired of this shit
You don't want to talk to me
Touch me
See me
You give me nothing that I need
Not laughter
Or intellectual stimulation
Not emotional stimulation
Or physical
When we are together
We do nothing
It's obvious you wish to be else where
And I'm getting bored
No
I am bored
So since you don't want me
And I am bored with you
Why keep up the charade?
You fucked up
It's your loss
It's over now
This is what I should say
But a whispering voice kills me
Saying not yet
Just wait
Give him a chance
Again
I'm still young
I don't want to die
I'm love
Don't kill me yet
Please
But I want to die again
You resurrected me
Made me live once more
I long for death
No emotions to be found
Not pain
Or love
You want me to care
Why?
It's not like you are ever around
Not even on our days
Do you know what death is like?
It's a barren place
No flowers
Or green hills
No heaven's or Hell's
No stars
Nothing
Just an empty space
It's a little lonely
But that is part of it's charm
No one around to hurt me
No emotions to bombard me
Emptiness
Stillness
Death
Logic rules here
The world makes sense
I can see the big picture
All but that little voice
I'm love
Please don't kill me
i don't want to die
It's a heart wrentching sound
It's tiny voice
Drowned out by it's shaddow
Pain
As long as love exists
So shall the pain
Both are illogical
Logic is so hard to argue with
The axe falls closer
So tell me
Since you know all the answers
Have it so together
Can't see what is wrong with this picture
Tell me
Why is it ok
For me to love you
Yet let you hurt me this way?
Why is it ok
To feel this pain?
To be ignored by you?
To want to die again?
Why does love hurt me this much
It's suppose to be wonderful
Why isn't it?
Tell me why
Why should I let you keep hurting me?
Making me want to cry
Tell me
Please
I'm too dumb to get it
It's not logical to me
So tell me
Please I beg you
Tell me why
Love hurts so much??
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[Dit bericht is aangepast door AnTaRTiCa (16-01-2002).]
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