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tis een heel erg triest gedicht voelde me toen owk heel erg kut tis wel allemaal fantasie maar de druppels rolde tog wel over mun wangen...

You lay there
Sweat on your brow from the effort to remain silent
Not scream out your pain
Your eyes they beg me to help you
I have done all I could
The doctor gave you pain medication already
But it hasn't worked in awhile
Your starting your last stages
The cancer spreading throughout your wasted body
Frail bones where muscle should be
I hate seeing someone once so full of life
Reduced to this
You did everything
Chemo, radiation, medications
Nothing worked
The cancer spread faster then even the doctor's thought it would
You went through everything you did
Because I asked you to
To try and fight this disease
To not leave me
Now you ask me
To help you
Your body not strong enough to do it on your own
You whisper to me

Please....let me die.....help me die......please....it hurts...too much now...

A tear passes my strength
I made you suffer this long
I made you lose your beautiful hair
And learn to life life in pain
To throw up everything you eat
To see visually the structure of your frame
I asked you to suffer all of this
For me
So I would not lose you
You did it to
You tried your best
You can't survive this
You asked me for one this in return

Let me die.......help me die...
.
How can I deny you?
Yet how can I kill you?
How could you ask me to?
How could I condemn you to suffering like this?
A moan escapes your lips

Please....

I nod
Tears in my eyes
I go and grab my insulin
I fill the needle full
It saves the life of diabetics like me
But even a little bit can kill a non diabetic like you
I fill a second needle
Then a third
I take then to you
You see what I have planned
Are you sure?
My last plea to change your mind
You nod your head

Please.........Help me die

I inject one, two, three into your leg
The insulin takes approximately 30 mins to work for non diabetics
I sit by your side
Start talking to you
Telling how much I love you
How sad I will be without you
How brave you have been through it all
How sorry I am to make you go through this
You listen to every word
Squeezing my hand tighly
Silencing me

No regrets...........don't blame.....yourself........
You helped me.......set me free.....of pain
Thank you.....

Your body starts to shake
Your eyes take on a confused look
The insulin has started coming to the end of your sugar supply
Time starts to draw near

Promise me........don't tell.............never...........promise....

My eyes widen with horror

Please........promise.....
Finally I nod...

I promise
Your eyes start to shut

Thank you..........thank...

Were your last words
Your hand goes limp and still in mine
Sobbing I grab your body
Pull it close to mine
Screaming

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.....

I stay holding you close
The doctors come rushing in
Then seeing that you are gone
They leave again
Giving me my moment of grief
They don't know I killed you
They just think that you died on your own
They don't know..........
My tears stop
I remember my promise made in your last moments of death
It was unfair of you to make me promise that
But it was unfair of me to make you go through what you did
You kept your promise to try everything
I'll keep mine
To not tell
My eyes dry now
I leave the room
Letting the nurses prepair the body
My eyes dry
And dead.........