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		tis een heel erg triest gedicht voelde me toen owk heel erg kut tis wel allemaal fantasie maar de druppels rolde tog wel over mun wangen... 
 
You lay there  
Sweat on your brow from the effort to remain silent  
Not scream out your pain  
Your eyes they beg me to help you  
I have done all I could  
The doctor gave you pain medication already  
But it hasn't worked in awhile  
Your starting your last stages  
The cancer spreading throughout your wasted body  
Frail bones where muscle should be  
I hate seeing someone once so full of life  
Reduced to this  
You did everything  
Chemo, radiation, medications  
Nothing worked  
The cancer spread faster then even the doctor's thought it would  
You went through everything you did  
Because I asked you to  
To try and fight this disease  
To not leave me  
Now you ask me  
To help you  
Your body not strong enough to do it on your own  
You whisper to me  
 
Please....let me die.....help me die......please....it hurts...too much now...  
 
A tear passes my strength  
I made you suffer this long  
I made you lose your beautiful hair  
And learn to life life in pain  
To throw up everything you eat  
To see visually the structure of your frame  
I asked you to suffer all of this  
For me  
So I would not lose you  
You did it to  
You tried your best  
You can't survive this  
You asked me for one this in return  
 
Let me die.......help me die... 
.  
How can I deny you?  
Yet how can I kill you?  
How could you ask me to?  
How could I condemn you to suffering like this?  
A moan escapes your lips  
 
Please....  
 
I nod  
Tears in my eyes  
I go and grab my insulin  
I fill the needle full  
It saves the life of diabetics like me  
But even a little bit can kill a non diabetic like you  
I fill a second needle  
Then a third  
I take then to you  
You see what I have planned  
Are you sure?  
My last plea to change your mind  
You nod your head  
 
Please.........Help me die 
  
I inject one, two, three into your leg  
The insulin takes approximately 30 mins to work for non diabetics  
I sit by your side  
Start talking to you  
Telling how much I love you  
How sad I will be without you  
How brave you have been through it all  
How sorry I am to make you go through this  
You listen to every word  
Squeezing my hand tighly  
Silencing me  
 
No regrets...........don't blame.....yourself........  
You helped me.......set me free.....of pain  
Thank you.....  
 
Your body starts to shake  
Your eyes take on a confused look  
The insulin has started coming to the end of your sugar supply  
Time starts to draw near  
 
Promise me........don't tell.............never...........promise.... 
 
My eyes widen with horror  
 
Please........promise.....  
Finally I nod...  
 
I promise  
Your eyes start to shut  
 
Thank you..........thank...  
 
Were your last words  
Your hand goes limp and still in mine  
Sobbing I grab your body  
Pull it close to mine  
Screaming  
 
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..... 
 
I stay holding you close  
The doctors come rushing in  
Then seeing that you are gone  
They leave again  
Giving me my moment of grief  
They don't know I killed you  
They just think that you died on your own  
They don't know..........  
My tears stop  
I remember my promise made in your last moments of death  
It was unfair of you to make me promise that  
But it was unfair of me to make you go through what you did  
You kept your promise to try everything  
I'll keep mine  
To not tell  
My eyes dry now  
I leave the room  
Letting the nurses prepair the body  
My eyes dry  
And dead......... 
	 
	
	
	
	
	
		
		
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	Sorry, Was I screaming again? 
	 
	
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