My Everyday Thoughts

[AnTaRTiCa]

My Everyday Thoughts

Pulling out my hair,
Shoveling at my arm,
Hiding under a self-made fortress,
Keeping me safe from all harm.
The insanity in my head cannot be banished,
I cannot protect myself from me,
The damage I do to my skin is uncalled for,
Yet nobody can take this habit away from me.

Screaming at the top of my lungs,
Dying to be alive,
Longing to be loved,
Praying to end this long strive.
My teardrops create an ocean,
An ocean no boat could cross,
I hide behind a fake smile,
I am nobodys loss.

Scared,alone,troubled,
Worthless,useless,frail,
Stubborn,hateful,angry,
Lost,hurt,and pale.

My emotions are fighting,
Battling a losing war,
I feel I've lost it all,
My world, along with my mind, has tore.

Torn in two,
Trying to cope,
Reaching for an understanding mind,
Along with a dagger and a wicked rope.

Tie the rope around the neck,
Tighter I pull,my flesh is strained,
The dagger I stick, in my chest,
Life pours out of me, all that has pained.

Lying limp across the floor,
Final thoughts floating through my head,
I've reached my destination,
I am a corpse. I am dead.

[AbusedPrincess]

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